You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. By recording your dreams and goals on paper, you set in motion the process of becoming the person you most want to be. Put your future in good hands — your own.
Generally speaking, envy, resentment, and self-pity are disastrous modes of thoughts.Self-pity gets fairly close to paranoia, and paranoia is one of the very hardest things to reverse.