the most famous composer in the world but was utterly miserable most of the time, and of the reasons was because he always overspent his income.This was Mozart.If Mozart couldn't get by with this kind of asinine conduct, I don't think you should try.
It must be remembered that while sympathy with joy intensifies the sum of joy in the world., sympathy with pain does not really diminish the amount of pain. It may make man better able to endure evil, but the evil remains.